AHH~ Summer almost done >.<

Even though there's still half a month of summer holidays... But I feel insecure now D:
T^T School is gonna start sooner than I thought and my world is back to chaos with the rehearsals and endless practises that would make Ms. H happy and keep my place secure in Senior Strings... I still feel like as if I don't deserve that place in senior...
I mean... I've only been playing for like the shortest time in my class but why do I end up in senior while some advanced people are still stuck below >__>
I feel like as if I don't try hard enough, I'm gonna get kicked >____<
Ahhh~ the chaos~ the pain~ T__T
OMG I just realized I didn't even practice once this summer...
Last month, July, I gave myself an excuse because I had a mountain load of summer school work and I have no time for practising. But now that summer school is done, I'm still not practising. The current excuse is that my viola is so out of tune I can't tune it properly x__x;;
Starting tomorrow, I'm going to TRY to tune my viola (hopefully I won't break the strings) and actually practise a bit...
Or else I'm so dead when I start my lessons and rehearsals....

*is feeling very insecure about the upcoming school year*
*emo corner*

On the other hand, I'm finally done downloading the Diablos concert =__=;;
(I'm so late xD)
I love the intermission part xD
The JOB members all dressed up as girls and OMG YUU was touching his fake boobs and winking while Chacha just blew a kiss~
I love Ju-ken's pose~ It's so MANLY~ rawr xD
Ryu's look is my favourite (because it was the funniest xD)
I guess he was this kung-fu "girl" or something with a long braid.
Then he twirls his braid around his neck (kung-fu style) and yelled out HEY!
OMG that sent me ROFL
While Gackt's looking at all of this with an innocent expression, I'm just like... >____> Yea~ I bet he's the one who came up with this crazy idea *cough*

P.S. I'm typing this blog under the threats of my DEAR mother =____=
As usual, she took my laptop away so now I'm hiding in my dad's work room and on his laptop...
(I'm begging him to buy me a MP4 >___>)
It sucks to be me, ne?