I am now calm =)

After my super hyper-ness last night xD
I THINK I only have money for one of them though T_T
cuz it's $20 AMERICAN not CAD T___T
FRIGGIN USD D:<
So yeaaa~ If I combined them, then it's $60...... I don't think I can afford it all in one go ~_~
Maybe I'll be able to afford it the next month T_T
Waaah~ I'm so poor =___=
(and my mom WOULD NEVER EVER give me money to buy something like this .__. especially after she saw my BEAUTIFUL gackt wallpaper and went "WHOA WHOS THAT HE-SHE ON YOUR SCREEN! IT DISGUSTS ME!" T__T and my poor fragile heart broke~~~ waaaahhhH~ gaaaaaaakkkkuuuuuuunnnnnnn~~~~~ how can anyone say that about joo~~~~ especially my own mother T___________T)
So yeaa... Every week I earn like $50~ So I've decided to put $10 each in my "GACKT FUND" (<-- LOL its just the name that I gave to the place where I save up money to collect gackt stuff *_*) and then the other $10 for my emergency lunch money/allowance (but I usually have left overs which is going straight to the GACKT FUND <-- ROFL I can't stop laughing at this name xD) The rest of the money goes straight to my piano classes =__=
*OMG my friend quit piano right after she finished her grade 10... maybe it's time I quit too T__T This is gonna be a hard decision for me~ Even though I hate it, but it's been 10 years already... It kinda grows on you and it became a part of my life throughout these years T_T*

Sigh~ If you have some sympathy for me please donate to the HELP A KID BUY GACKT MERCHANDISES FUND xD (nice name eh?)
Even though I might only buy 1... I still can't wait to for October 9th (or is it 19th??? on the website it says 19th but on amazon it says 9th =S CONFUSED!)
If I were to buy one, I would get the blue one =P It's got more of my favourite songs than the red one xD