Mood -> Down

I haven't been writing much these days......

Friday ... was the worst day of my life... It's partly my own fault *sigh* 4 bad things happened one after another... And I believe 2 of them are linked together *sigh~~~~~*

Well... in strings... I didn't practice the 5th movement of the senior piece... Well... It's more like I didn't practice that line. So we were practicing in the practice room and H came and heard me play that part... Obviously... It was hoRRIBLE... I don't even know what notes they are. So she told me to practice somewhere else and I shouldn't be practicing with them if I don't know the notes though. So I went out to the stairwell going up to the pit, 然后我哭了... 我不知道为什么...... 我很委屈...... 但是我知道我只能怪我自己...... 当然我已经很努力的没有在她们面前哭. 特别是让我这样的那个人. 我很努力了...... 我不喜欢她的语气...... 我也有我的自尊...... 当然作为一个老师，她必须要这样跟我说..... 可是.................... STRINGS 里，我真的超怕. 为什么就不能让我在简单一点的组...... 我好累~

她的话真的可以控制我耶~ 上次表扬了我... 乐了我几个星期... (Orz) 这次... 哎........~~~

Worst day of my life... I'm not gonna do the other bad things... T_T Or else I might cry in front of my laptop and my dads like in the other room.... yeaaaaa....

I can never face her again... She probably doesn't trust me anymore in terms of practicing T_T

O well... If I ever had the chance... I would switch art areas... Strings is too tiring T_T I swear, one day, I'm gonna go emo cuz of strings @w@