Books that made me cry...

...are usually the ones with the best stories xD
For me, I like books who can either make me laugh so hard while reading it or made me cry between every other page (and also cry the hardest during the end) :P
I hate it when sometimes the author just gives you a plain ending and gives you time to think about it yourself~ ~____~
I like it more absolute *w*
Let's see~
The books that made me cry are:
1)幻城
“哥，你要自由的。”
Waah~ that quote at the end made me cry so much T_______T
Basically, everyone died in the end except the main guy...
I read it like 3 times and I cried everytime.
2)梦里花落知多少
Guess what, it's by the same author as the above book ;___;
He made everyone have a messed up life in the end except the main girl... Like the other book where he killed everyone except the main guy =o=
So let's see -> the main girl's best friend got raped,
- her ex-bf got played by his new gf and he realized that he still loves her but the thing is that she hates him now for making her feel miserable and making his new gf slapped her on the face 3 times,
-the guy who liked her went to do drugs,
-the guy that she loves who loves her back died because of her... Here's what happened... they got into a car accident and the guy got head injuries. He was unconscious for a long time... but when he finally woke up~ the girl jokingly SLAPPED his injured head and BOOM~ HE DIED O___O
I WAS LIKE WTF O_______O THAT POOR GUYY D:<
3)喜欢你 (あいしてる)
I love the storyline <3 It was so sweet and sad T_T

You might've noticed that they are all Chinese books xD
Chinese books are so much more interesting than English books~ *no offence*
And it also improves my chinese skills :>

Granado Espada eh...

Looks interesting~~ :P
But looks too complicated to play ~____~
I'll think about playing it later~
Now I kinda wanna play 完美世界~ I think the english name for it is Perfect World or something (what a cheesy name xD)
But the thing is that the 代言人 of that game is my least favourite actress of all time!!!
Stupid fkn 刘亦菲 =___=
She has no right to be famous~ It's all because of her mom's man which could possibly be both her mom AND her man =___=
He's like FILTHY rich~
Which just shows how unfair this world can be >___>
She can't act or sing @_@
People like her should NOT be famous AT ALL~
And not talk about HOW UGLY SHE IS!
Her face is so big and when she acts, there's ABSOLUTELY NO expression on her face~
I was like WTF IS WRONG WITH YOU~
What was that saying again? 长的丑就不要卖丑 xD
Actually she's not THAT ugly... It's just that I hate her so much >___>
She was in all those series acting as some kind of "pure" and "saintly" girl... *I'm gonna be sick :X*
Guess what, she ruined them all :)
仙剑奇侠传 was like the most classical chinese RPG of all time (you can chase its history all the way back to 1995 and my mom even played it like three times and she was so touched by the storyline. I personally played it two times under the influence of my mom xD). Anyways~ They made a drama based on it and so yea... She was like the main girl character in it and OMFG she ruined it so much =___= I couldn't even bear to watch her....... First of all, it's sad to see that such a great game being turned into a cheap drama >__> You can even see BUSES driving in the background (HAHA~ it's in ANCIENT China >__> I don't think buses are being invented yet xD~ The director sure has some interesting imagination)
LOL notice how this blog changed from me saying that I might try Granado Espada into a rant about my least favourite actress? xD
Yeaaa~ I'm so weird >__<

P.S. I could write an essay about that actress and how she shouldn't be alive in the entertainment industry if I wanted... >__> But nah~ I'm not going to waste my time on her xD

~.~ I Got So Bored...

So I started to download FlyFF xD
ROFL
I quit that game like a year ago... But now I'm playing it again xD
Too bad I lost my account ~____~
Sigh....
It would be so much easier if I have my old account...............................................
Oh well~~~~~~~~
On the other hand, I still didn't get a new hard drive from my dad...
But now I'm taking over his laptop slowly...
Such as installing things that only I would use on it x3
I just hope I won't mess up his laptop T_T
It seems like I have a curse on using computers...
All the computers that I've used ended up dying~~~ or is already dead
Poor me @____@

OMG I'm so nervous right now...
Like the "I-don't-know-whats-going-to-happen" nervous =(
I did my piano exam supplemental in June and I still didn't get the result...
Sigh~~~~
I'm so nervous because I don't know what's going on and I'm too scared to know the results...
I keep on telling myself that it happened once and it won't happen again (I'm not going to tell what happened that time xP)
Gosh~ I don't know what to do >_____<

A Whole Week Left...

A whole week left until school starts T__T
Waah~
I'm gonna miss the days when I get to wake up at 10 am every morning and go to bed at 3 in the morning.
I could sleep longer but my mom won't let me =_=
Why does she have to work at home >___<

[OMFG WTF! WHERE DID REST OF MY STUFF GO????? O___O THIS IS WEIRD!!]

=____________=
I guess I'll have to write this again...
What did I write again?
>______________________>
Geebus
I can't write this with my mom behind me -___-
I'll continue later~~~

Ah~ Memories...

Recently, memories have been rushing back to my head @_@
Mostly, I think about the days as a kid playing with my friends in the school back in China.
Ahh~ Those precious days =o=
Even though we had a lot of homework, we still managed to have fun and enjoy ourselves.
How can I forget these days~~ especially HIM >.>
I guess he was my best friend back then. The girls won't play with me because I guess I was too "wild" for them... And also probably because I don't know how to play those girly games @__@
I'm serious x.x I don't know how to play them...
I always played with boys.
Anyways~ I really liked him xD
He's two years older than me even though we are in the same class
Ok here comes the confession =__=
I kissed him in grade 1 xD
hahaha~
It was a cheek kiss though >___>
What do you expect a grade 1 person to do LMAO
I really wanna see him again~ I don't like him anymore xD
I haven't seen him since I moved to Canada ... and so.. >__>
We lost contact @__@
But he's still a piece of my memory :)

My Poor Hard Drive T_T

There's absolutely no way to recover my stuff now T_T
Today, I thought of a new way to try to get to my things~
I remembered that my dad has this CD with Linux on it
If I start up with that CD instead of my hard drive,
I might at least get into my files...

=__=
Ok yea.. it didn't work
T_T
I'm so sad and pissed right now....
On the day that my hard drive is messing up, my dad said it's better to get my files out now and so that's what I tried to do.
When I was transferring my stuff, my MOTHER had to COME IN and be such a >_< *BEEP* and went "don't be on the computer~ you should go do your work".
And then she locked my laptop up just as I managed to save 1/23 of my total files on that hard drive .....................................
Then the next time when I finally can get to my laptop, it's three days later and I can't even get it to start up without seeing a blue screen...
=____=
So yea... My mom is part of the reason why I lost my stuff
I'm so FKING MAAADDDDDDDD

When I was telling this to her, she just went "so?"
I'm like ... )@(*&#$(&^%#(%*!&#)$#%^(^@
*insert rant + swearings here*
LIKE SERIOUSLY~ she doesn't know how important those things are to me... =___=
and now everything's goneeeeeee
>:[
This is why the relationship between me and my mom never got better =__=
I'll save that topic for another day~

郭敬明又骗了我的眼泪 T_T

刚刚读完了郭敬明的梦里花朵知多少~

这位大仙又骗了我这个纯情少女的眼泪 @_@ 我靠！*这句话把我自己恶心了半天*

OMFG I CANT STAND MY DAD'S CHINESE TYPING THING!!
Anyways... I'll just continue in english =__=

Yeaaa~ I was crying so hard from the beginning of the book to the end of the book. I actually heard my tears drop on my desk xD
This guy's book made me cry this hard at a book again...
The first book I've read from him is 幻城.
I thought that book was already sad enough but this book is worse >___<>
The content of this book is mature since the characters all finished school and everything
But it was so saaad
Like during my readings, I just wanna go and slap someone from the book
>__<
After I finished the book I was crying for five minutes straight even though it has nothing to do with my life nor does it relate to the people around me... o.o;;
Sadly it was in the middle of the night and I had no where to wipe my nose...
~__~
I didn't wanna wake my parents up by going to the bathroom... They are gonna think I'm a freak and probably think the book is inappropriate for my age ~_____~
It's actually not that inappropriate except for the fact that the girl swears every other line... But it's funny to read :)

I love how the story is kinda believeable and goes around friendship and relationship and not like all those other girly romance books where the guy says "I LOVE YOU" and the girl turns around with tears in her eyes and goes "I LOVE YOU TOO" and then they run towards each other with memories flooding themselves and hug... o.O
Yeaaaaa... That's how some of the books I've read goes and most of the dramas I've watched.

>___<
My hard drive totally crashed... I can't even get into my Windows log in page T_____T
Now I can't even get my stuff out
*SOBZ*
MY POOR JOUGEN NO TSUKI CONCERT DDDDDD:
I didn't even get a chance to watch it and it took me few days to find and a day to download~~~
All of it are going to the garbage T_____T
waaaahhhh
And all those GACKT PICTURES
OMFG I just realized my PICTURE COLLECTIONS ARE PROBABLY GONE FOREVER
OH MY GODDDDDDDD!!!!!!!!!
AND SONGS

AND VIDEOS
SHITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!
OMG!!!
*going emo*

I Hate Math :)

Yup~
For those of you don't know...
I hate math =___=
Just blame it on my mom for making me do all those stupid math questions which I don't understand >__>
She's been lecturing me about what I should do in live and blah blah blah~~~~
It went on and on and on...
It started on Wednesday and she didn't stop for once...
Like OMG? :0?
AREN'T YOU TIRED FROM SAYING THE SAME THING OVER AND OVER????
Geez... I'm serious... She repeats stuff over and over... If you wanna lecture me, at least come up with something new =___=
Then maybe I'll take an interest and actually listen to you =o=

Grrrr~
I hope time would stop and I don't have to go to school...
Just thinking about strings and its endless rehearsals and my viola lessons makes me wanna go jump off a bridge T_________T
I really wish I went to a normal highschool ;[

Laptop Busted...

Yesterday marked the dying day of my second laptop...
SIGH~~~~~
ITS TOSHIBA DAMN IT!
I guess I was using it too much.
Examples:
-I never turn my laptop off, I use hibernate (not sure if it contributes to ruining my laptop)
-a whole summer of gaming and downloading
-constantly using P2P servers to download (my dad warned that it's gonna mess up the hard drive)
-In the last few days, I was beating my laptop quite hard by playing Ragnarok Battle Offline >__> It's kinda like Street Fighters except it's RO people @___@ I was banging on my poor keyboard so hard =o=
-Most importantly, I wasn't protecting my laptop properly T_T

I can still use it but the hard drive is extremely slowwwwwwwwwwww
and it makes funny noises T_T
So now I have to get a new hard drive and transfer my stuff there through USB and then let my dad open my laptop and have a good look at it...
That's what he does for a living @_@ well... part of...

The other bad thing that happened yesterday is that me and my mom fought again ~.~
It's about the same old thing ->
"YOU HAVE TO DO YOUR MATH QUESTIONS!"
But I don't get it T_____________T
And she took away my poor injured laptop~~~~ and my MP4 which I stole back this morning from my parents' room since it's so small...

The only good thing that happened to me was the arrival of my MP4~
I'm happy~
Now I can carry Gackt around everywhere I go xDDD

P.S. I'm writing this on my dad's laptop~
*___* omg I love his laptop~ It's so fast and the screen is sooo LUXURIOUS xPPP
(my mom doesn't know of course)

GAWD~

My mom is soooo 不可理喻!!!!!

Today I went to Emily's house for the afternoon and was home like 30 minutes late and she kept me outside =___=

I'm just like OMG THATS NOT FAIRRRR!!!

Last summer, she was like lecturing me for the whole summer on how I should be more "active" and go to places instead of staying home

Well, this summer, I did go to other people's homes and play and now she's telling me I play too much

LIKE WTF

She TOLD me to be more "active"

So yea...

I had to stand outside for a while until that guy's parents came and pick him up

They were like "aaaw~ what's wrong" "you okay?"

And so I gave them a dry laugh

[omg this was where I left off yesterday...
I was typing this and then I went downstairs because my dad said my MP4 has arrived. But when I came back, my laptop got a blue screen T____T
I know what blue screen means....
I've experienced a lot of it before on my laptop before my dad gave me a new motherboard and hard drive for my laptop >___<
So yea... my laptop right now is really slow
I think the hard drive is dying cuz I was using it too much...]

Received My Time Tables...

T___T

SAAADDDD

is the only word that can describe my mood now ;_;

school is starting omgomgomg

*freaks out*

But the good thing is that I have everything together with Emily except Strings for the first semester :)

That's good enough for me xD

And we also have Grade 11 math together during the second semester with Mr. D who is such a loud teacher >__<

Does he have to shout every time?????

.__.

at least it keeps me awake in class... not like last year where I was either sleeping or reading my chinese book during math

I finished that book I talked about in my last blog...
IT WAS SUCH A BAADDDD BOOK

Omg~
The second part was so stupid it's not even funny -__-

The ending was... like...

o.O

WAH?

WTF o___o

So what happened to the guy?????

= =;;

>___<

The weather is getting coldddd ~_~

BUT AUGUST IS NOT OVER YET

*pouts*

At least it's going to get hotter next week :)

I love summer xD

Sad Sad Love Story...

Today, I just started to read 穿越时空之生死恋~~

OMG it was soooooo saad

I was crying so much~~

T______T

Basically, the story invovles around love across the centuries. The whole story is very bery sad T-T

The first part of the book was basically about the lovers' first lives ~

There's this girl and this guy, the girl changed the guy in many ways and they love each other very much.

But then the guy's older brother likes her too and the girl ONCE LOVED the older brother, except he kinda broke her heart when he told her that he's engaged EVEN THOUGH he actually loves her. The older brother's fiancee got jealous and framed her for many things...

One day, the fiancee told the girl to hold a knife and she did. Then the fiancee screamed to the older brother that the girl was trying to kill her~ The older brother got mad and stabbed the girl. The girl was so sad that she jumped off the mountain.

But she didn't die~

She lived but she lost her memory..

The story is too complicated for me to type it out here >___<

That's only half of the first part of the book though

OMG I was pretty much crying during every other page T___T

It was soooo sad T_T

Then the second part was about her second life~~ involving the guys from the previous lives

I'm not done the book yet though~~

T__T

I'm the kind of person that gets involved with the story too deeply~

Anyways

I love the whole story line but I hated the way the person wrote it =__=

It's like so childish and not beautiful at all...

If she wrote it more beautiful, I bet I'm going to bawl my eyes out and cry THROUGHOUT the book ~__~

It's Getting Cold...

Waah~
It's getting coldd >__<
Makes me think about the start of school T__T

Haha~ I didn't write yesterday... I was so tired >___<
Let's just say I went to the exam with my student >__~
My piano student of course >:P
Hehe~ I feel so important =DDD
Well, enough said about that!
And then I had to go to my art lesson... =__=
We had to draw a sphere with most of the dark part facing us
It was kinda hard... =w=
And the teacher said I need to improve on my circle drawing skills xD
I don't know whyyyyy... I can't draw circles these days T____T
I was good at it before >__>
Whatever =o=~~

Well, today, I went with my mom to the mall and bought this little dress~
It was so cuteeeeee >w<
Now I just need to find better shoes for it ~__~
But OMG I can't wait to wear it once I have good shoes for it =)
(Haha~ I have no life... I went shopping with my mom...)
I feel bad because I had to turn down my friend's b-day invitation just for a day with my mom ;[
It's because I feel as if I haven't spend time with my mom enough...
So I guess today is the mother-daughter day for me~
Nice way to appreciate my mom though =))

Awaiting Shipment~~

BWAHAHAHAHAHAHA~
My dad still loves me more *glares in my mom's general direction* :<
Last night, my persuaded him to buy me that MP4 and he finally said OK~
YAY~ Now I'm just waiting for the shipment...
I feel a little guilty =__=
I dunno why~
Maybe because my mom didn't approve of it 100%
But that's the way it has always been @_@;;
First I beg both of my parents for something I really want but my mom is always the person objects >___>
Then I would go talk to my dad *I LOVE U DADDY*
The end result is that my mom telling my dad he's wasting money =__=
SCREW YOU >:[
Besides, I'm going to give him the money anyways... I DO have my own money now (not from doing work for them of course~~ My OWN money that I earned with my blood and sweat)
Yup~ That's what I'm going to do...

P.S. Watching Diablos concert now~ man~~ Nobody's downloading the 2003 tour... So I can't really download it now since I'm using thie P2P thing... But it's like 50% already >__<
I don't want to download that much again and spend that much time D:

P.P.S. I love my new playlist~ Summer Snow by Fahrenheit is such a good song~ and Rainie's songs <3
But Gackt is still my #1 xD
It feels good listening to chinese pop after months of J-rock
It gives my mind a soothing rest x3

AHH~ Summer almost done >.<

Even though there's still half a month of summer holidays... But I feel insecure now D:
T^T School is gonna start sooner than I thought and my world is back to chaos with the rehearsals and endless practises that would make Ms. H happy and keep my place secure in Senior Strings... I still feel like as if I don't deserve that place in senior...
I mean... I've only been playing for like the shortest time in my class but why do I end up in senior while some advanced people are still stuck below >__>
I feel like as if I don't try hard enough, I'm gonna get kicked >____<
Ahhh~ the chaos~ the pain~ T__T
OMG I just realized I didn't even practice once this summer...
Last month, July, I gave myself an excuse because I had a mountain load of summer school work and I have no time for practising. But now that summer school is done, I'm still not practising. The current excuse is that my viola is so out of tune I can't tune it properly x__x;;
Starting tomorrow, I'm going to TRY to tune my viola (hopefully I won't break the strings) and actually practise a bit...
Or else I'm so dead when I start my lessons and rehearsals....

*is feeling very insecure about the upcoming school year*
*emo corner*

On the other hand, I'm finally done downloading the Diablos concert =__=;;
(I'm so late xD)
I love the intermission part xD
The JOB members all dressed up as girls and OMG YUU was touching his fake boobs and winking while Chacha just blew a kiss~
I love Ju-ken's pose~ It's so MANLY~ rawr xD
Ryu's look is my favourite (because it was the funniest xD)
I guess he was this kung-fu "girl" or something with a long braid.
Then he twirls his braid around his neck (kung-fu style) and yelled out HEY!
OMG that sent me ROFL
While Gackt's looking at all of this with an innocent expression, I'm just like... >____> Yea~ I bet he's the one who came up with this crazy idea *cough*

P.S. I'm typing this blog under the threats of my DEAR mother =____=
As usual, she took my laptop away so now I'm hiding in my dad's work room and on his laptop...
(I'm begging him to buy me a MP4 >___>)
It sucks to be me, ne?

The Day is Dragging On and On...

Nothing exciting has happened these days~~
I'm our of ideas to put for my blog =_____=
Not that anyone would be at their right mind to read it...
But bleh~
I'm kinda bored...
I'm tired of playing PAL III wai zhuan <__<
I want to finish it and everything (because i'm like at the third last maze or something... but it has friggin FOUR levels... =___= and so many exits... I'm just like... >___<>
I'm waiting to download PAL IV... After I'm done downloading the Gackt concerts xD
I WILL buy the original DVD when I get the chance (and money =v=)

指间沙 is such a good book xD
It's the book that Emily brought from China and she lent it to me.
When I read it the first time, I didn't get it. But then when I read the manga, everything's clearer now =o= The actual story is like 46 pages LMAO
The rest 100 or more pages are the manga ^_^V
I'm gonna return the book to Emily some day ~ This week I'm too lazy to go to her house again even though she lives ... like right across the street x3

I guess this concludes my blog post for today =_____=
Wow~ For the N-th time, I have no life~
1, 2, 3, Let's celebrate no-life-tism together
^__^V

Fun Fun Fun~

I promise there won't be nosebleeding and fantasizing in this today's post :]

Today was fun!! Emily's back from China~
We were watching all those Gackt videos that I'd recommended *__*
I love the Diablos Intermission where the members dressed up as women .__. and Ryu has this long braided hair and he swung it around kung-fu style and yelled out "HEY"
OMG that part was HILARIOUS
I couldn't stop laughing xDDDDD
Sometimes if I suddenly start to think about it on the subway, I would laugh out loud and people would give me a weird look (.___.)
The Domoto Brothers show with Gackt is also fun to watch~
We were laughing non-stop during the shows......
Whatever~
Nothing else happened today ~__~
I guess I'm just so tired from all the laughing this afternoon >____<
At least I'm keeping up with my blog ^__^b

I'm having a YY attack T__T

It's only in the morning (for me... even though it's like almost noon now), but I HAVE to make this post.
I was hanging around the S.K.I.N. Baidu forum and I noticed a post that pretty much gave me a nosebleed.
Ok here it is ->
If you were stripped down nakey by Yoshiki, Sugizo, and Gackt while Miyavi is kissing you all over... And then the rest would come in... What would you do...
The original:
"偶和贞子聊天滴时候讨论了一下,如果被YO,GA,SUGI三只扒光了~`然后小雅在你身上吻来吻去(同时其他3只一起扑上来= =)亲们会怎样??? "
AAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH
NOSEBLEED X_______________X
@___________@
I have conflicting thoughts towards this question DDD:
Should I scream for help and fight back or... should I admit to my perverted side......
*reaches for tissue*
*major nosebleed*
.........................................
~_~ Now I'm very troubled LOL
This kind of posts are the reason why the "theme" of my blog is secrets......... *cough* *cough*
*crawls away silently*

The original post came from http://post.baidu.com/f?kz=213617407
It's in chinese xD

Good Dreams Lately...

I've been dreaming good dreams lately (^_^b)
It all started three days ago~
Let's see... The first one was about You, Gackt and me~ (bwahahahahaha~) It was all cheesy though >.>
I joined as Gackt's staff or something and then for some reason I went to You's house (BWAHAHAHHA I hope that would really happen) and then he started to sing to the flowers... (.__.) I have such a cool imagination~
But that was the first dream I've ever had about Gackt (^__^)
And then yesterday, I was having coffee with Gackt (IN MY DREAM of course ~.~). And for some reason, Gackt had long and wavy hair~ and it's black xD (it's probably the result of me looking at Yoshiki's early photos and hanging around the Gackt forum in Baidu before bedtime =_=)
Last night, my dream felt like a horror movie. Some angry spirit/ghost or whatever is in Gackt's drinking cup (O.O)
I'm the only one that knows about it (>__<)
I've been trying to tell him and everything (o.O my dreams are getting weirder...)
And then I forgot (^_^V)

Wow I have no life... (looks at my blog's url -> omgihavenolife.blogspot.com)
Dreaming about Gackt ROFL LMAO
And this concludes my episode of good dreams xD
V^__________^V

Woohoo~ First Blog >_<

Well~ One more month of summer holidays (T__T)
I'm out of things to do (^__^;;)
So here I am, sitting in front of my computer, having no life, and writing my blog (^__^V)
Let's see... What inspired me to keep a blog is... o.O YOU-kun's diary.
And no... I'm not talking about you. I'm talking about You from GacktJOB. Man~ If a middle-aged man could keep a diary updated, why can't I? (<__<#)
So I am determined to keep my diary updated (^__________^)

Ok... I'm off to work on the template of my blog now (X__X)
This just looks way to plain~~~

------------------------------------------------ later today.........

Ok so I've put up the header...

At first I wanted to make a very pretty and fancy gackt themed header... But in the end, I chose this~ I like it =) I guess I'll keep it plain and pretty ^^

Waah~ I just came back from my drawing lesson... (My mom made me go so at least I'm doing something useful this summer...) =___= whatever...

I'm so tired >___<

My mom's making me do those friggin math questions.... like WTH o.O asian parents.... *sigh* They ALWAYS think you are stupid or something >___> Yes, my mom thinks i'm the dumbest person ever like OMFG... she takes away my computer and stuff... ARGH~ I guess this is gonna turn into a rant about my mom forcing me to do fkn math questions... Like I DON'T UNDERSTAND THE FRIGGIN CHINESE BOOK K? GEEZ....................... My chinese is not that bad but seriously... The way the word the phrases in that book is so confusing... I'm just like... O.O huh? *falls asleep*

Bleh~ My parents are so not fair >___<