心情很差

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心情真的非常的糟糕 = =^ TMD 我很像大叫一声 >.<

数学考试........ 我怎么是这么的蠢？？？ 啊！！！！！！！ 我要疯了 T___T

唯一让我开心的就是~~~ 魔王殿下已经到了北京！！！！ 永远爱殿下！ <3

I seriously have no life @_@

Underwater

I feel underwater for the past few days... I just want to close my eyes and not think about anything and just sleep @_@

Now when I think about what had happened that day, I feel stupid because I was crying so hard >_< Gah~ This is just the way I am... I cry for other people >_<

I don't feel good for the past few days @_@ and NO~ It's not because of the "traumatizing" that happened on saturday that left a scar on my heart and amg I'm gonna turn emo xD It's more of a stress and anxiety from everyday stuff x_x

I just don't feel like writing stuff on my blog... @_@;;

P.S. I'm getting my braces off in 3 months ^-^ But there's gonna be another year of retainers T_T SIGH~

P.P.S. I AM NOT TURNING EMO @)$(*%&)(*@&)(*#&

Horrible... Bloody Horrible

Today... I experienced something so horrible... so bloody... so scary... that I don't even wanna talk about it on here... I don't want unwanted questions popping up... Because I hate thinking back about what had happened...

Let's just say... I cried for a long time after it happened and almost cried on the subway on my way home...

So please... Whoever's reading this... DON'T ASK ME ABOUT IT! I DON'T EVEN WANT TO REMEMBER IT!

My bows are jinxed @w@

All my bows are jinxed... All those bows I've used are broken, or something bad happened to it T__T The bow I have now is my fourth one in my short 3 years of viola playing... As you all heard... I screwed up another bow today @w@

Well... It was raining pretty hard this morning and I didn't bring an umbrella (I HATE umbrellas! Yea... It's just another one of my weird habits...) Then my case got pretty wet. Somehow, the water went inside the case and dripped onto the side of my fingerboard. Then the paint from there started to drip... And it went on my bow hair O___O So you just see this blob of black paint upon my pure white bow hair x_____x

I DONT KNOW HOW IT HAPPENED! I've had worse times where I had to carry my viola case in the rain but nothing of this sort happened >__< Like o__O HOW THE HELL DID THE WATER GET IN??????? And HOW THE HELL DID IT DRIP ON MY BOW????

Mrs. H didn't get mad at me... (She's probably mad but she didn't scream or yell at me T_T But it made me feel worse... Cuz she had to take it to Heinls and get it rehaired @o@) OMG OMG I feel sooooooooo bad right now T______T I swear... I can never face her again T_T (Well... xD I kinda have to face her everyday rofl)

Today was a pretty awful day...

And just then, my mom went out to the mall to get something and the mall is doing constructions on the door. But she didn't know that they added another layer of door... She thought there was only one glass door. I guess she was in a hurry. So she SLAMMED into the second door and her nose started to bleed soooo bad... Her nose is SWOLLEN at this time... I'm just like O__O;; OMG? HOW CAN U SLAM A GLASS DOOR THAT HARD AND MAKE UR NOSE SWOLLEN???? LIKE WTH... Weird things happen... Ok... =__= I just wanna LAUGH... But I feel bad for her >__< SERIOUSLY... = =^

My Cousin is a Meanie ;[

Haven't talked to him in a few years... Yesterday, my mom called them and he gave me his QQ number

I wasn't gonna use QQ xD (I used to have a few of them... But I forgot the pass and everything @w@... So I had to make a new one)

Anyways~ I added him and it's so fun talking to him again xD Did I mention that he plays the viola too? (@__@ But hes like sooo much more advanced than me... Cuz hes like lvl 10 violin... and lvl 10 violin is like more advanced than ARCT in canada xD)

He's still mean to me xD But he's still my favourite cousin lolol

Haha~ Some things never change xP

P.S. I swear his gf looks like my aunt........... O__O;; WAKAKAKA I saw him kissing his gf in his pic album xD He got mad at me and locked up his photos @__@ GEEZ!!!

P-MALL <3

买了I went to p mall with S.C., R, and Syl today xP Haha~ It's the most productive trip yet for me @w@ I actually bought USEFUL things instead of posters or other random stuff.................... I bought myself a FAKE monokuro boo wallet LMAO xD But I really like it... Instead of black and white piggys, its got white bunny with a black bear~ But it's really cute =D I also bought my japanese textbook (FINALLY! after a year... Yea... LITERALLY... A YEAR xD) aargh... I had only 5 bucks left afterwards T_T I WAS GONNA GET THAT SEXI SEPHIROTH NECKLACE ;[[[[[[[[[[[[ But I didn't have enough money >____<

Haha~ I bought McDonalds xD But I didn't buy the burgers... I bought the McFlurry :P I swear... I haven't had those in like 5 years O_O Gaaah... I'm gonna get so fat now....

买了一个秤。。。。。。。。。。。。 从下个礼拜开始。。。 就是我的

减--肥--计--划--！！！！！！！

This time I'M SERIOUS!!! I shall accomplish this goal xP The lolita dresses will help me in chasing this goal (LMAO!) 因为我想什么时候回国然后买一套~ 但是胖乎乎的穿得不好看~~ 5555555 T_T

P.S. Haha~ Why am I writing on my blog now? xD I should be doing my japanese homework >_< Damn~ My mom lost my homework... So now I have to write out everything on hand T_T

I THINK she lost it... But I couldn't possibly think of other ways that I might've dropped it >___< It's cuz she used my bag last time............. HMMMMM @_____@

OMG A FKN STALKER!

So many strange things happened today............. Orz....

The sectional was cancelled for some reason. So I went home early with Em and S.C. But OMFG on the Sheppard subway, THERE WAS A STALKER TAKING PICS OF GIRLS LIKE OMG FUCK OFF >___<

It was so creepy... We were just standing there waiting for the train and that perverted piece of shit was just standing there and staring at us O__O AND HE WAS TRYING TO TAKE PICS UNDER OUR KILTS (well I wasn't wearing one) >_< And throughout the whole train ride, he was just staring at our direction O___O;;

When we got off, he just started taking pics of other girls........ And he took another pic of S.C.'s kilt before he left... (= = 我的身材是安全的~ ）IT WAS SO OBVIOUS and SOO CREEPY and SOOO SCARY TT__TT

THIS GUY... NEEDS TO GET LAID >xO

OMG I'm so scared now... T_T

P.S. OMG MY MP4 IS SCREWED UP!!!!!!! T___T MY GACKT SONGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *OMG TODAY IS SUCH A BAAD DAY* ;_;

AAAH! Sectional tomorrow >_<

Ok... It's a "help" not a "punishment"

=_+

WoWoW~

That made me feel so much better >_<

Gaah

I was gonna write something really interesting for todays... But it's kinda late and I have a volleyball test tomorrow (LIKE WTF!!! WHY DO WE NEED TO KNOW THIS STUFF?????????)

I'm so dead.... FRIGGING VOLLEYBALL RULES!!!!!!!!

@)($*&$)(#*#@&)(*&

OK.. I shall study in here... x_x

- 6 players, 12 player (including sub) max

-must be inside court when serving

OK SCREW THIS TT____________TT

Darn those little babies >_<

我靠！
今天我老妈竟然让我逃学来带这些小P孩们............ 不过是因为她真的有事要出去........
我真的是。。。。。。。。。。。。。要昏了。。。。。。。。。
TMD 那2个小恶魔。。。。。。。。。 快把我累死了。。。。。。。。。
我只好把她们放在我的床上，让她们自己去爬。。。。。。。。。
我可怜的床哇 T______T 我今天晚上都不敢睡上面了。。。。。 我敢保证她们的哈喇子流了我一床的。。。。。。。。。*晕死*
@w@
希望以后再也不会发生这样的事情。。。。。。。
Orz..................

Omg yesterday I received a message from Youtube saying that somebody replied to my comment on this video... I opened it, and some fucktard was like "this is not suppose to be cute, it's suppose to be funny" *like wtf thats so fkn stupid o_O* So... I can't comment on something that's cute? That's really dumb... She's (IF she even has a gender) such a fucking whore. To her comment, I replied something like... =__=^ it's my own opinion that it's funny
And then the bitch's like "fuck ur mother"
=__= I'm just like... wtf...
Ok... I have to think of something offensive and make a point that she's a dumb whore =__=;;
*goes back to Youtube* xD

Nightmare ;_;

Last night... I had the most bloody nightmare ever T_T I felt so real and there's no escape of the horror... There was so many blood and I was given to chance to kill somebody... But I just couldn't do it. *Shows that I still have some sense =o=*

I couldn't remember the rest of it. But I remember during the middle of it, I had to go up some stairs but it was dark all over... I was so cold and scared. Then finally, I got up to that room and there were people with me. Then I don't remember what happened. The red room... was the scariest part of my dream T_T Somehow, I was trapped in this room that's been painted all over in red. It's either that or the lights are red. I was in it with a few other people. And there was a body in the box that's in the room. I had a feeling that the body is someone that I love. But the thing is that now I think about it, I don't recognize him from anywhere (Yes, I'm sure it was a he). Whenever I look at him, I just felt this surge of sadness and I would start to cry.

Now comes the most bizarre part of my dream. Apparently, we've (me and other people... I had a feeling they are my friends but I don't know which ones) been in this red room for a long time and we are hungry. Then my friends started to take out the body in the room and they started to eat it O__O I was crying and shaking and screaming that I wouldn't eat it (because apparently, it belongs to someone I love =__=;;).

*forgot what happened next*

Then I remember there's other man and he's in pain. And all I know is that now is the time for me to kill him. I don't know what was I thinking (well.. DUH! It's a dream). I think I killed him or somebody else did...

*another gap in memory*

The red room returned to a white room. Everything is white and peaceful (or back to normal... Whatever the "normal" means... I just knew in my dream that it's all over and back to normal now). Then there's the body of the old man that I *felt* I killed.

Then I woke up *because I HAD to go to the washroom... Or else my tummy's gonna explode >_<)

This was the bloodiest dream I've ever had... There was never another dream that I had where I've seen a corpse or felt like killing someone @_____@

Dream is a fascinating thing~ Ne?

Ah the PAINNNN >_<

T_T I'm injured all over from gym class >_<

Today, we were playing volleyball and using the Bump technique... I kinda missed the ball on the part it's suppose to be and used one of my knuckles... It hurt for only like a few seconds then it's nothing... But omg after gym class and in strings... I saw this HUGE blue spot on my knuckle ;___; That was when I realized I probably got it from the volleyball xD

T__T Poor me, my face nearly got destroyed by Emily... She threw the ball on my face like WTF O___O x__________x

WAAAHHHH~

交友不慎哇~~~~~~~~~~~

P.S. I got my report card today...........

The Last Day of Term 1 <3

I shall miss religion class >_<

We didn't do anything there xD All we ever did was talk about things... and we ALWAYS go off topic @w@

and OMG Mr. A said FUCK today LOLOLOLOL~

He swears a lot xD

But I like him better than a lot of teacher ;D (even though he's a hard marker >_<)

But...WoohoO~ I got 92 for religion xD

That's pretty good...

*___* I'm such a nerd.... I got 99 for math ROFL LMAO

My marks:

Religion: 92

Strings: unknown... probably somewhere in the 80s T_T (the teacher hates me </3)

Science: 94%

Math: 99%

I DON'T wanna know my strings mark!

Tragedy at Opera Atelier... = =^

Yesterday, we went to the opera atelier workshop... and MY HEAD GOT PUNCHED BY M. FOE! @$(*&$)(*&!)(*&@*(*#

@____@

I was sitting on the table. And then M was being stupid and was snapping his fingers in front of my face. And then I wanted to get off the table. So I leaned forward, the same time as M's fingers were coming close to my face for another snap... =__= and BOOM~ He punched my forehead >__<

But... OMG I WAS ROLLING ON THE FLOOR WITH LAUGHTER!!! I dunno why... it was really funny >__< BUT IT HURT!

and Today, whenever I press that part... It HURTS T___T

WAAAHHH~ M.FOEEE!!! IM GONNA GET U FOR THIS!!!

P.S. I blacked out S.C's face... Just in case she gets mad at me for putting her pic up xP

Mood -> Down

I haven't been writing much these days......

Friday ... was the worst day of my life... It's partly my own fault *sigh* 4 bad things happened one after another... And I believe 2 of them are linked together *sigh~~~~~*

Well... in strings... I didn't practice the 5th movement of the senior piece... Well... It's more like I didn't practice that line. So we were practicing in the practice room and H came and heard me play that part... Obviously... It was hoRRIBLE... I don't even know what notes they are. So she told me to practice somewhere else and I shouldn't be practicing with them if I don't know the notes though. So I went out to the stairwell going up to the pit, 然后我哭了... 我不知道为什么...... 我很委屈...... 但是我知道我只能怪我自己...... 当然我已经很努力的没有在她们面前哭. 特别是让我这样的那个人. 我很努力了...... 我不喜欢她的语气...... 我也有我的自尊...... 当然作为一个老师，她必须要这样跟我说..... 可是.................... STRINGS 里，我真的超怕. 为什么就不能让我在简单一点的组...... 我好累~

她的话真的可以控制我耶~ 上次表扬了我... 乐了我几个星期... (Orz) 这次... 哎........~~~

Worst day of my life... I'm not gonna do the other bad things... T_T Or else I might cry in front of my laptop and my dads like in the other room.... yeaaaaa....

I can never face her again... She probably doesn't trust me anymore in terms of practicing T_T

O well... If I ever had the chance... I would switch art areas... Strings is too tiring T_T I swear, one day, I'm gonna go emo cuz of strings @w@

Ahh~ Open House~

It was good ^_^b

But... I thought the call time was 6:45... It was actually 5:45!!!! I came late... ALMOST AN HOUR LATE.... T___T It's cuz SOMEBODY told me it was 6:45... Good thing she didn't get mad at me =o=

I'm sooo tired now... I took the subway home @___@

P.S. S.C. took pictures today xP~ I'm gonna ask her to send it to me ~ I really like those pictures xP