O wow... TWO MONTHS xD

LOL
It's been two months >___>
WOW...
Feels like FOREVER *___*
so many happened during this time
which I'm too lazy to list out one by one = =;;;;;
BUT~~
I performed at two weddings LOL xD
earned some money... but omg... the haircut was such a rip off....
A's cousin did it for me and it's not even that good... I found out later that she is chargin me $20 for it.. which has to be taken out of my pay... $50 each wedding, so that's $100 in total that I was SUPPOSE to earn...
But... DAMN~~~~ $20 for that stupid haircut??? (it's not even a haircut ok? she just got me bangs that doesn't even make a different = =;;;;;; and my hair's still the same as before... it just looks different for THAT day.... WTF)
So in the end, I only earned $80 T_T
$75 of that goes to my piano lesson... Man oh man~ I'm so poorrrrr ~___~ SIGH...
This summer... I'm soooo getting a job :X

Anyways... my weight loss seems to be coming to a halt :OOOOOO
This is baaaddd
I only lost 20lbs... damn... I just can't control myself now...
Geez... If I don't control myself, I'm probably gonna have bulimia or anorexia lolol
cuz when I'm really hungry (like afterschool and noone's home), I eat a lot but then I feel SOOOO BAD about it T_T
So now... I have this sick feeling in my stomach... :X
But I'll be alright ;)

I think I'm gonna go back to writing on here xP
This is also a place to keep track of my weight loss~
My plan for the next 21 days is
1. First 3 days, exercise + drinking water ONLY
2. Next 8 days, exercise + water + fruits and veggies
3. Next 10 days, eat normally... but NOT FULL
I read somewhere that this will make me lose 7kgs~~~
I tried it before and it's really working.. But I only lost like 5 lbs cuz I didn't exactly follow it xDDDD
This time~~~ I shall DO IT >:OOOOOO

FIGHT OH~!

MHQ Karaoke o(∩_∩)o

It was pretty good :D
Better than I thought xD
They do have a fairly OK amount of english songs with their original MVs
haha~ But some of them have random MVs or NO MVs at all xD
As for the Chinese songs, I haven't been listening to them lately so I have no idea how most of hem goes =,=
I had to sing japanese songs xD
But the only jap songs I know are Yuki no Hana and some boA's japanese songs xD
@_@;;
That was kinda sad ..........
But it was fun in general =P

OMG yesterday, I got my retainer on and I FKN HATE IT
I CANNOT TALK PROPERLY WITH IT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Everytime I talk, there's this sh- sound T_T
It's sooooooooooo annoying
and my mouth always gets all watery inside.... I'm just scared to go to skl... What if I accidently drool when I talk???
AARGH
I have to live with this for the next year of my life!!!!!!!! WTFFFFFFFFF
AAAAAAAAAHHHHH

Painful Second Day...

So I'm back on the diet again = =;;
This time I'm gonna do the 21 days thing
For the first 3 days, I have to eat nothing but drink water
Then the next 8 days, I can eat vegetables and fruits and water
then the remaining 10 days, I eat normal food except at small porprotions

Here I am, on the second day without food x_x;;
I actually ate some solid food today and now I feel EXTREMELY guilty T_T
OMG I feel like I gained another 10 pounds or something @_@
Sigh~
Tomorrow is the last day of the first stage...
I am actually losing weight... But this is just too painful T_T
Oh well...
All beauty comes with a price ;[

Happy Birthday to me =)

Happy birthday to me
Happy birthday to me
Happy birthday dear MEEEEEE~
Happy birthday to me ;3

Wow
I feel like such a loser for singing HBD to myself xD
Well... Today's my 16th birthday and I'm celebrating with my parents = =
On friday, I'm probably going karaoke-ing @ p-mall... Damn. I'm gonna be so poor... and I don't think my parents are gonna support my expenses... Sigh... Now I just wanna go kill myself on my birthday =___=
Rofl emo thoughts again >.<

Looking Back...

At my Febraury entries... Wow... Was I EMOOO xD
Yea... February was kinda messed up..
and I just got my laptop back except there's something wrong with it and then I had to reinstall everything T_T
omfg
aargh...
I just don't have the motive to write random things on here now x_x
Anyways
My birthday is coming up... except I don't know what I'm doing :X
I've wanted to go to a karaoke place at p-mall but when I googled it, it doesn't seem that safe - - cuz apprantly, some guy got stabbed and died in there X__X (even though I'm emo sometimes... I just don't wanna die on my birthday xD)
I want to go to Take One too... Except nobody seems to know the price and AAH @__@
Nobody is helping me with karaoke pricessssss =o=
I need to find one that's cheap, has most chinese and english songs, some japanese and some korean... But it's kinda hard =\
Hmmmm
More researching @_@

P.S. Oh man... I'm sick -_x

Oh Great... - -

My laptop's busted again...
This time, it's a corrupted registry
Dunno how the hell that happened :S
It's probably because THAT WOMAN smashed my laptop close... and UNPLUGGED THE AC POWER while I was in the middle of something... and yea... my laptop is AC powered cuz they didn't want me to ruin the battery = =
OMG
I can't fix this T_T
I googled it and holy shit it seems like nobody has the ABSOLUTE solution to it x_x
So now.. I'm just gonna connect my hard drive to my dad's laptop and hopefully, I can transfer everything.... and then I'm gonna use the A70 recovery CD :X
I HOPE THAT WORKS T_T

I hate my mom :)

I hate my mom =)
I fkn hate her so much
and I don't care if she was the one that gave me life
If I knew I would end up with her, I would rather have no life at all
end of story
:D

And Again... The Misfortune of My Laptop :X

Oh wow - -
I'm so fed up with my parents...
Ahahaha~ my dad took my laptop away xD
For some reason, I just wanna laugh 8D I found that extremely funny... (omigod I think I'm developing a mental illness or something... Oh well... Don't be surprised if I suddenly go wacko and go jump off a building -_-)

Anyways... It started with my dad randomly talking about my report card
Like WTF... WHY the hell are you asking me NOW when for the past 15 years of my life, you didn't care about my academics? That certainly was NOT making sense to me :X
I AM confused...

OMG I swear it's cuz of that little whore who works with my dad who talks about her son all the time... And other bitches = =
Everyday, they (co-workers) were like "my son got 99% average~ and he's going to UofT" or "my daughter got ten billion university accpetions!"
Woohoo~! WELL lady/sir... UR son DOES NOT MEAN A SHIT to ME... AND... I really really REALLY don't give a FUCK about ur daughter... I have a life...
Or for now... I'm just trying to enjoy my last bit of freedom before university prep actually starts :S

MY DAD did not ask me about my report card for the last I dunno how many years and NOW he's asking me... Like WTF this is just driving me crazy
When he asked, I simply replied It's not here yet...
AND GUESS WHAT! He doesn't believe me xD
WELL it's TRUEEEE! They didn't send out the report cards yet @_@;;
and HE is accusing ME of LYING to HIM
If it's my mom... Okay... I won't be this mad... cuz well... it's my mom - - and she does it all the time =o=
I, in a way, got used to that......
BUT SERIOUSLY WTF =___=
I am soooooooooo pissed off......

I don't know what I'm turning into... I've never felt like this before
Nowadays, dark thoughts are always coming up to my mind x_x
Sometimes I just feel like I need to stop TIME and just close my eyes and reflect
I swear one day, my parents are gonna hit the bottom line and I WILL end up doing something stupid -_-

Oh man oh man... This time, it's gonna be hard getting my laptop back... FUCK! I HATE my life... T_T I can never understand why my mom BLAMES me for everything -> coming to Canada, losing her job in China, me not doing well in school (note that this "not doing well in school" means getting 93% overall average 8D)

GEEZUS! Sometimes I just wanna jump off a building and just end everything.......................... If it's not for the fact that I haven't experienced many things that I wanted to experience (i.e. falling in love, be able to see Gackt in person LIVE), I'm probably already dead now and wouldn't be typing this extra long blog post...

P.S. Holy fuck 7:30am sectional tomorrow morning... WTF?! We did NOT do anything wrong in the rehearsal... That is sooooo unfair =___=

My cousin's the best xD

LOL~
My cousin actually bought the card for me =w=
Except... He bought it off the internet @_@;;
Cuz the store was closed on Valentine's Day xD
I guess he wanted to keep his promise =S
Well~ Anyways~
I was sooo touched *_*
That's like the nicest thing he's done to me =D
I lubbb my cousin lol
Now... He's waiting for the shipment = =
Now that I think about it... He could've waited a few more days for the store to come back from Chinese New Year and buy it then rather than buying it off the internet and wait for like 15 days or something =\
Anyways...
I'm gonna go back to my own laptop... Some ppl just added me on QQ ^_^

Bloodshot Eyes O_O

For some reason, my eyes have been really bloodshot for the past 2 days >_< It looks very demonic xD And bright lights hurt my eyes :X

I hope it gets better tomorrow @_@

I can't believe I forgot about You's birthday T_T OMG I'm such a bad fangirl x___x Arrrgh~ I feel like killing myself now ~.~ Oh well... It's not like I can do anything for him.... - - So whatever... Next year, I'll think of something :P

Today... I'm so tired... I was actually sleeping in com tech class teeheehee~~ xD

I was just "staring" at the monitor... and yea xP

Bleh~ The days are dragging = _ =

Sigh~~~

MY LAPTOP IS BACKKK

OMG I got my laptop back~~~ o(∩_∩)o

I'm soooo happy

But the only down side is that after using my dad's laptop and then switching back to my own laptop, my laptop is waaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyyy slower than his - -

I CANNOT play sdo on here... it gets soooo laggy =S and my keys are different too... for some reason, the arrows responds slower than the speed I'm actually pressing >_<

I don't know why T_T

But OMGOMGOMG last night I talked to my MOST BELOVED cousin and he is gonna buy me 100RMB of sdo card XDDDD

WOOOH

I can finally have pretty clothes (*^__^*) 嘻嘻

<3333 I love my cousin ^_____^

New Semester!

New beginning, new semester xD
Well~ not really a new beginning >_>
Anyways~~ 1st period strings is not so bad... It's actually so much funner than before xD
This semester is gonna be cool...
Grade 11 math (not cool) @_@;;
But communication technology is really interesting
We are going to do a music video, commercial and a documentary~ So I'm looking forward to those =P
I just really don't feel like writing anything =_=
I STILL don't have my laptop back ;[
I just got an e-card from my cousin except I can't reply him cuz .... = = no chinese :X
I'm really really pissed off =^=

P.S. I'm getting better at SDO xD I can do lvl 8 songs now 8D

BYEBYE 1st SEMESTER!

Oh man~

First semester is gone @_@

I AM DREADING NEXT SEMESTER X_X

STRINGS... FIRST thing in the morning... DAMNNNNNN

Anyways...

This week's been hell = =

I did pretty bad on my math exam today... I can't believe I actually FORGOT the quadratic formula...

AND I THOUGHT MATH WAS MY STRONGEST (even thought it's the subject that I hate the most...)

WAAAAHHHH~~

Well
In the past few days, my phone AND internet's been down...

Actually, it's only 1 day xD

But still....

My person got so fat in sdo n. america xD

Anyways

I'm glad everything's fixed... That's why I'm tryping this right now xD

P.S. This is the GACKT wall I was talking about xD

Even though there are other walls with fan messages... but this one is the biggest xD

hehehe~

O no!! I gained weight T_T

OH MANNNNN~~~~~
I gained weight T_T
After all of my hard work T_T
It's all my mom's fault = =
She kept on telling that I have to have my nutrients xD So I just started to eat a bit more than when I first started...
And... yesterday... :S Went to Emily's party... ate chicken katsu @_@;; Couldn't even sleep last night cuz I was soooooooooooooooooo full X____X
And today, Any's mom... fed... me... a GIGANTIC sandwich... thats like 20cm wide T_T Filled with EVERYTHING @_@
OH MAN OH MAN!!!
I hate myself T_T
Ok...
Starting from tomorrow, it's all back to square one :X

P.S. In the karaoke room, I SAW A LOT OF GACKT FANS WRITING MSGS ON THE WALL!!! WOOT
And guess what~ I joined them ^_^ bwahaha~
I need to get a job... I just saw the Eyes On book (the photoshoot book with 50 pics of COLOURFUL gackt pics) on eBay... I WANT IT T_T
Well... I've already left my name + phone number for the part time job in the post office xD First step... I guess :X

>.<

CL`` How are you?

Haha~ It's funny how I remember you xD
Lawl~ Leftover memories from the old times @_@;;


Sigh~ Tomorrow's the big day... I'm waking up at 5... practice for 1 hour, then get ready for school at 6, leave home at 6:45, then the morning sectional begin T_T

And then... PERIOD 2! MY RIP TIME!!!! I'm sooo nervous... Damn~ I even cried =o=
Stupid strings!!! *_* I can't wait until grade 12 semester 2 where I can say BYEBYE to strings FORLYFE! xD
Haha~ I talk about random things here xD
Anyways~ BED TIME! 5 o'clock tmr morning x_x....

TwT

Ahhhh~
I ate too much this weekend T_T
It's all my mom's fault... SHE WAS TEMPTING ME!!!
OMG I just wanna slap myself @_@;;
Argh! I finally managed to lose to a bit lower than 140 and now im a bit over that line = =
T______T
Next week... I AM NOT EATING
!!!!!!!!

Day 6... Nothing...

Nothing's happening >_<
Morning: Egg + All Bran bar (it was good :) )
Lunch: veggies + meat + yogurt + apple
Dinner: nothing!
At 8:00: I ate half a banana =_=

Well~ Today, I've started to exercise @_@
But the thing is that I can only do it in the afternoon, afterschool, and after I finish practicing piano... So I'm very bery bery hungry afterwards... So hungry that I feel like I'm going to faint x_x
Yea~ That's why I ate the banana @_@
Nothing's changing!!!! I'm still staying at 65kg = =
Omg~ I'm so fat x__x
My final goal is to 50kg xD
SIGH~!!!

OMG TODAY I FOUND OUT WHEN THE STRINGS EXAMS ARE ON O_O
T__________T
IM SOOOOO SCREWED!!!!!
AHHHHH~
HOLY CRAP
I have sooo much things to do but I don't even when where to start T_T
Thats why last night, I went off to look at cosplays ;_; WHEN I COULD'VE BEEN WORKING ON THE STUPID SCIENCE REPORT!!!
AAAAHHHHHH @_@

100th Post!

How did I end up with only 100 posts up to today? = =;;
Anyways...
A little report (my diet diary xD)
Morning: egg + SOME pasta (I didn't wanna eat it... but I was hungry T_T)
Lunch: a little bit of veggies and meat in a TINY container (my mom said it's to keep me supplied with nutrients) + yogurt + orange
Dinner: Nothing
I feel like I got fatter today cuz I ate too much @_@;;
Well~ I'm still the same weight since yesterday... WHAT?! Aren't I suppose to lose like 1 pound/day =_=

Omg I AM GOING INSANE HERE!
There's something wrong with my dad's computer T_T
It can't show SOME chinese =SS
AAARGH! I can't go on QQ... I can't even see my msn name correctly ~_~
I just hope my mom gives my comp back sooner =o=

Hunger... x_x

I'm soooo hungry @_@
Today's only day 4 T_T
Morning: nothing (slept through it)
Noon: yogurt + orange
Afternoon: some animal crackers (couldn't resist) + 2 bites on a mango
Night: some more bits on the mango + some cookies (I GOTTA STOP EATING COOKIES!)
Current weight: 145lbs... (Hey~ I did lose some weight... If I continue like this~ I'll be skinny by summer 8D AHH~ I'm so looking forward to that)

OMG... I wasn't planning on eating anything at night like the past 3 days... But I was STARVINGGGGG!!!! X_____X
I don't know how I'm gonna survive tomorrow... going to piano lesson with just yogurt + fruit in my stomach T_T
THIS IS HORRIBLE x_x
But at least I'm losing weight... Starting from tomorrow, I guess I'll start excercising xD IF I can wake up at 6 in the morning that is @_@;;

Well~ today, we went to Winners and shopped there for a long time...
I'm guessing that's why I was sooooooo hungry... I was really close to fainting @_@
I feel like I'm abusing myself... =___= OH WELL~ sigh~

Putting my new year's res. into action xD

I'm actually trying to accomplish one of my New Year's Resolutions =_= go on a diet x_x
So it's been 2 days since I've started it.
I read this girl's experience of from 160~109 in like a few months (I'm not as heavy as her xD If I were~ I would probably go suicide now @o@)
Anyways
She said she only ate lunch and oranges when she's hungry
So this is sort of what I'm doing now... Except I eat breakfast too cuz some people said it's actually really bad if you don't eat anything in the morning!
So Day 1:
Morning: milk + egg
Lunch: yogurt + apple
after school: OMG MY MOM WAS TEMPTING ME WITH A HAMBURGER!!! So I ate 3/4 TT____TT I REGRET THAT DEEPLY T___T
Dinner: NOT EATING DINNER!

Day 2:
Morning: egg (didn't feel like drinking milk... It was collldddd)
Lunch: yogurt + apple
after school: HOLY CRAP MY MOM WAS DOING IT AGAIN!!! WHAT KIND OF A MOTHER IS SHE???? So once again... I ate 3/4 of it
Dinner: nothing... I was so hungry I wanted to faint x_x

Day 3: (today)
Morning: yogurt + egg
Lunch: apple + 1 1/2 oatmeal cookies + chocolate bread (it was really small... I was so hungry T_T)
Dinner: no eating anything! (even though it's not dinner time yet xD But I know I won't be eating it @_@)

Well~ I guess it kinda worked... I went down 5 lbs O_O
WOOT! I better keep up the good work xD
Note to self: NO MORE RICE/BREAD (even chocolate bread T_T)

Ahh~ Exams O_O

I've been stressing out about exams ever since school started T^T

I'm not worried about Science and Math
I'm just really... really... really... really scared about strings exam =S

WHY DOES IT HAVE TO BE PART OF MY AVERAGE???

AARRRGHHHHHHHH

If it's not part of my average and I'm just doing it for fun, then I would enjoy it very much =o=

But since we are getting marked on it, then =___= yeaaaaa...... =o=

I wouldn't even care if I failed or something =_=

Like seriously~ WHO THE HELL IS GOING TO BE A PROFESSIONAL PERFORMER????? WELL! NOT ME! I'm not even gonna be a PROFESSIONAL PERFORMER for PIANO... and I've been practicing piano for how long? Let's see... 10 years or more? =__=

Gawd~~~~

I HATE STRINGS I HATE STRINGS I HATE STRINGS I HATE STRINGS I HATE STRINGS I HATE STRINGS I HATE STRINGS I HATE STRINGS I HATE STRINGS I HATE STRINGS I HATE STRINGS I HATE STRINGS I HATE STRINGS I HATE STRINGS I HATE STRINGS

STUPID STRINGS!!

AAAHHHHHHHHHH!!!

P.S. Don't you just love Sylvia's doggy? xD Wow... That was random @x@

School T_T

Amg...
The first day of school after the holidays is finally over @_@
BUT O NOES!!!! EXAMS!!! O_O LIKE SERIOUSLY.... I AM SOOOO
S
C
R
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W
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D
for strings TT________TT
I HATE STRINGS ;[
I used to like it...~ Sigh~~~ I missed the fun and careless grade 8 beginner days ~~~ I was good... But now... I'm horrible... I can't keep up with senior chamber ~_~ It was a big mistake @_@;; I mean... I shouldn't be in senior even xD Dunno why I ended up there~ Well... It was cuz they need a viola... DUH~ and I happen to be the "good" one in the loser pile LMAO
watever...
Sigh.............
SCHOOL SUX ;[

Happy New Year!

OMG it's 2008 already T_T
Damn~ I feel like as if I've been wasting my life all this time @x@
Gosh~ I still have to do my homework and PRACTICE O_O HOLY SHIT I DIDNT PRACTICE ONCE THIS HOLIDAY OMGOMGOMGOMG
AAAH~
I hate strings T_T
Mrs.H makes us practice like we have no life =_= I made a big mistake for coming to this school T_T O well... TWO MORE YEARS... actually one and a half more years of strings xD THEN NO MORE VIOLA! I'm never gonna touch that instrument EVER again afterwards :D

Lets see... My New Year's Resolution:
1. LOSE WEIGHT 8D
2. Get a job after my birthday...
3. Save up for Gackt concert (plane tickets + concert tickets *sigh*)
4. Take the friggin SAT test @_@;;